Appreciation

You just don't appreciate my effort, that's it.

I'm trying hard to keep the conversation going but you're obviously not.

The times when you were so upset, I was there for you, I cared. But where were you when I needed you the most?

I can't figure you out, I don't know what exactly are you thinking or planning to do.

I'm tired of your nonsense. Don't only talk to me nicely when I flare up or when I do some serious talking with you. 

If I ask you a question, you should know that I obviously know the truth, if not I wouldn't even bother asking. But why, why did you still lie to my face. 

This gave me a thought to ponder upon, all this while, was there a single thing you told that wasn't a lie? 

Yes, this is what you did to me, by lying for the first time & apparently more lies to come. Heard before a quote, "Trust takes years to build, seconds to break, forever to repair" ? You've broken that trust I had in you, and I will NOT and never believe your words anymore. 

Sometimes I wonder, why did you came into my life, why did I met you, why did I get to know you..

Maybe it's to teach me a lesson, that I should not trust anybody that easily because they will all end up betraying that trust and leave your life like everyone else did. 

People, do yourself a favor. If you don't intend to stay in my life, just leave now okay. Don't be like this pretentious person who told me that he will always be there, but ended up slowly leaving my life like everyone else.

Sorry for always being so sensitive and emotional, but I'm just feeling so unappreciated at times and I feel like I probably should just disappear and see if anyone bothers to look for me, & I know what the answer will be.. I'm fine now, don't worry. I know who cares and who don't, so don't have to text me or anything heh. I love and treasure each and everyone of my besties. 

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